Numb is my favorite Linkin Park song…but that’s not what I’m writing about. Lately when M says he loves me more than anyone, I get so embarrassed and shy, I tend to reply back with a joke. It’s not that my feeling changed but because being together is our ordinary life and I became numb about M loving me that when he says his feelings out loud or whisper in my ears, it almost feels like he’s tickling me. Maybe how I feel is normal once married but it makes me feel terrible when I cannot say sweet words back right away. Maybe I’m testing him. Who knows.