This morning, my mom had mentioned that… don’t worry if you change your mind about wedding… we will deal with it when you change your mind. Anything could happen in a year. I must say…. this made me feel really sad…. I was so grateful to see M today because I needed his comfort. I needed him to assure me that he is there for me forever and always. Of course, I know it but when a person especially my mom kind of mention that our relationship may not be permanent and anything could happen… it made me feel very unstable. I do appreciate M. I do like everything about him. The way he takes scare of me…how he looks when he is thinking.. when he is worried… when he is happy. It makes me wonder… if he knows that I appreciate what he does. I try to show but… sometimes he is showing how much he cares more than I do.